A new beginning

2005-03-25T20:09:00.000-03:30

Grass heads.

2005-03-25T20:08:00.000-03:30

Belle walking in the park.

2005-03-25T20:07:00.000-03:30

Steve cut off my head.

2005-03-25T20:06:00.000-03:30

Belle and Steve at the Park

2005-03-25T20:05:00.000-03:30

Belle and steve at the park.

2005-03-25T20:04:00.000-03:30

Steve at the park.

2005-03-25T20:02:00.000-03:30

Belle at the park.

2005-03-25T19:59:00.001-03:30

She loves to look out the window.

2005-03-25T19:59:00.000-03:30

What a cutie!

2005-03-25T19:58:00.000-03:30

Belle and steve. My two loves!

2005-01-03T17:12:00.000-03:30

Puppy going for a walk.

2005-01-03T17:11:00.001-03:30

Puppy and Steve

2005-01-03T17:11:00.000-03:30

My two cutie pies!

2005-01-03T17:10:00.002-03:30

Steve and puppy in the snow.

2005-01-03T17:10:00.001-03:30

More snow puppy!

2005-01-03T17:10:00.000-03:30

Puppy in the snow!

2005-01-03T17:09:00.000-03:30

We are so cute!

2005-01-03T17:08:00.000-03:30

Pee! Loud!

2005-01-03T17:07:00.001-03:30

Allies Puppy!

2005-01-03T17:07:00.000-03:30

Fun, Fun!

2005-01-03T17:06:00.000-03:30

New Years At Allies

2005-01-03T17:04:00.000-03:30

New Years Sheldon

Things are Better

2004-10-17T19:24:00.000-02:30

Things are better now, not back to normal but better. I don't know Me and Steve seem to be a bit pff lately, I don't know if its because we see more of each other then we are use to or if its becaues I am stress and he is stress and we take it out on each other because noone else is around. Oh well I know we are meant to be together and that we can get thorugh it we just need to talk and communicate to each other and everything will be ok.

I went to the hosptial to visit my grandfather today and its is wo hard to see him lying there so helpless and not be able to know if he is ever going to get better. I had to fight back tears a couple of times. I just don't want to remember my grandfather this way, I want to remember the healthy grandfather, the one I use to spend summers with, the one who took my brother fishing. I love him so much and his illness had bee so hard and trying on my family. I just want everything to work out for the best.

On a happier note I will be able to post more often now because I have internet in my room.

Depressed

2004-10-05T20:28:00.000-02:30

Steve and I had a fight and he hung up on me. He has never done that before and now I don't know what to think. I cried a lot and then I sat and stared at the computer screen for a while and then I decided that I really needed to get my work done.

I mean its was a stupid fight and I called him back after he hung up on me and he appoligized but I am still worried because he has never gotten angry at me before. I feel like an idiot. I mean I have been super emotional lately, damn period, but its still no excuse to get upset. I was angry because one minunite he said that he had to much work to do and was going to see me, and I was fine with that, but then the next minunite he said that it wasn't that much work so he might be able to see me. That is when I got mad becaues I just felt like I wasn't getting the whole truth.

Argh, Sorry to bother people with this boring stuff in my life but I have nothing else to write about and I am really worried so I needed to get it out some where.

Loves

Things are going well.

2004-09-26T15:40:00.000-02:30

Things are going well. I am a bit disappointed today because I should be on my way to Gros Morne but I am not so I guess I have to let go of that an move on. I guess on good point is now I have some extra money that I would have spent on my trip that I can save for Christmas or maybe a trip up to see Jen and Scott.

I have been bothered be a few things lately. I feel like I don't see anyone anymore. I Talk to Sabrina every day for a little bit and I see Steve and I usually talk to Virginia a couple of times a week but I feel like everyone else had disappered. I was glad to see some people last night though. I am looking forward to my birthday. I can't wait to go out and have fun with the girls. I am really going to miss Jen though.

Well I have avoided my work long enough. I need to do a journal entry and plan my lesson for Tuesday and one for tomorrow as well. I must be going now.

Loves

Getting nervous.

2004-09-19T16:01:00.000-02:30

I am going to be haveing my first supervised lesson on Tuesday. I have taught a bunch of lessons since the first week of school but this will be my first on in front of my supervisor but so I am starting to get a bit nervous. I am going to be teaching a math lesson on graphing. Its just one that is from the book where I will teach the concept and then have them do a page in their book. I really want this to go well. I hope that my class listens to me and that everything is going to be alright. I hope that my little kid that is sometimes a problem is good and that all goes well.

My supervisor seems like a nice lady but she also seems like she is going to be really particular in what she wants. I hope that it all goes well.

So that is it. I don't think anyone actually reads this that is why I put all this here instead of posting it in live journal and botherin everyone with my crazy stupide worries. Well that is all from me. Must be going.

Loves

Getting sick

2004-09-12T16:54:00.000-02:30

I have been in the school for three days and I am already getting sick. Damn kids and being the germ infested things that they are. I love them to pieces though so I can't be mad at them. They did not try to make me sick. I need to start back at having my orange every day so then hopefully I will be less sick.

I have successfully planned my first lesson. I will write more tomorrow to tell you if I manage to teach it successfully or not. I am a bit worried. I really want to do well. I hope that everything works out.

Well I should be going.

How does everyone like the new stuff that I added.

Loves.

So tired

2004-09-10T23:56:00.000-02:30

I am so tired. I have had only three days of school and I am already feel sick and drained. I hope this doesn't continue. I have no energy left at the end of the day and that is one of the reasons that I have not been very social lately. Before that I was really worried about my internship and all that but now that I have started and I have an idea of what I am doing I feel much better now. Hopefully this week I can get back to normal.

I am starting to get excited about my trip to Gros Morne. Hopefully the labour dispute does not cause it to be cancled. I really want to go and I think its going to be a wonderful experience and I am so luck that I got accepted to go. Both my Teacher and my supervisor think that its great and can't wait to see what I learn there. I hope I learn something that I can take back and share with my class. I am sure that I will. I mean almost anything can be adapted to fit your grade level if you just take the time to look at it the right way.

I get to start the new Social Studies Unit on Monday. I am so excited. This is a brand new program and my teacher siad I can probably start with that and then add more subjects. I am so excited I hope my lesson goes well on Monday. I plan on planning my lesson tomorrow during the day and then I will be free to go out with everyone tomorrow night.

Well I think that is all from me for now. Hope everyone is doing well and I do miss everyone.

Loves

Worried

2004-09-05T18:25:00.000-02:30

I am starting to get really worried about my internship now. I am worried that I am going to do horriable and then what am I suspose to do? Oh my God the Stress is killing me. Sorry that I haven't been really social lately but I am just so worried that I don't really want or feel like socializing. I just want to stay here at Steves house and forget about everything at least until tomorrow.

So what has everyone been up to?

Well I should be going now.

Loves

Bored

2004-09-03T19:58:00.000-02:30

I am playing with my new computer here at Steve's house. I love this computer so much. I can't wait to get wireless internet at my house so I can be on the internet all the time.

So I hope that everyone likes my new layout. I really like it. Got to love theses elves right? Those pointy ears really turn me on!

So my lack of sleep really caught up to me today. I had a really bad headache and took a 2 hour nap and now I feel much better.

I think Daphne and I are going to go shopping tomorrow. We both need cloth for our internship, since its not really appropriate to go naked. Then I have to go to my Grandparents new apartment to celebrate them selling their house. I don't know how long I will be out with my family but if its not to late then I would love to do something with everyone.

Well I should be going so I can spend some time with Steve.

Loves

2004-09-02T02:07:00.000-02:30

This is me!

The last girls night

2004-08-26T08:56:00.000-02:30

I had a wonderful time last night. I laughed, I cried and I realaxed and enjoyed myself. Ism sorry that I had to leave so early but I was super tired and I just couldn't keep my eys open any longer. If I didn't have to drive myself home I would have stayed longer. I hope you all had a good time after I left.

Jen thank you so much for the stuff that you gave me. I will charish it forever. I have been thinking about some day making my own quilt and I will have to cut a piece out of that sweater and use it in the quilt and then I cna tall my children all about where each piece of material came from.

I am going to miss that so much. It didn't hit me until last night that we always have girls night at Jens. What are we going to do now? That was a big part of my life and now it has changed forever.

So I have 4 more days of work counting today and I have nothing to do since I had to hand in all my work yesterday for Tara to go over before she goes. I hope I can keep myself occupied for the next four days so that time goes by fast and I don't have to be to bored.

I have to go home today and clean out my stupid sister's pig cage. I so don't want to do it. She was suppose to clean it before she left but of course she didn't.

Last night

2004-08-25T08:56:00.000-02:30

It seems that someone else has found me but I don't know who they are since they did not leave a name, so if it was you then please leave me a message with your name.

I had a good time last night despite the awaful service at East Side Mairos. I think Jen liked her presents and everyone seemed to enjoy the slide show. I know that Sabrina and I worked really hard on it and we are very pleased with the way it turned out.

Well I need to get back to work because my report is due today and I need to read it over and print it off. After that I have nothing left to day and only 4 days left at work so I will probably update here rondomly.

loves

Good-bye supper

2004-08-24T09:04:00.000-02:30

Yay! daophne has found me all by herself, well with the help of Jens link. Hi Daphne!

So tonight will be our good-bye supper for one of my oldest dearest friends. We have been friends since Kindergarden, which is almost our whole lives. I am finding this really hard to deal with. I have never had someone this close to me leave before and I am not really sure how to deal with it. I love her so much, and its like losing a member of my family. Well it is like someone in my family is moving away becasue my group of friends is my second family. We take care of each other and we are always there when one of us needs something. What is our little family going to do without her? I am so happy that she is going away to do something that she will hopefully love and enjoy but I can't help but wish that she would change her mind and not go. I know that she is going to be reading this so Jen I am sorry if I am upsetting you but I need to get this out because my head is swimming with all these thoughts.

So tonight is going to be emotional and I need to remember to bring a box of tissues with me because lord knows we are all going to be crying at some point.

Well I need to get back to wrok

Loves

Camp

2004-08-23T09:17:00.000-02:30

Camp was fun, well at least I thought so, the girls seemed to have lots of fun and that is all that matters right.

I am so tired. I haven't slept very good in like 2 weeks and it will be another week before I get to have a good night sleep again.

I am so sick of work. I hate it here, I have nothing to do and it only making me cranky and upset now having to come here day after day and having nothing to do. My Bestfirend is leaving and I just want to spend time with her like everyone else but instead I have to go to stupid work and be bored out of my mind. I am so glad that I only have 7 days left counting today since I have only been here for like 45 min.

My strange pain in my arm is gone. I hope it doesn't come back becasue it was unbarable last night. I cried all the was home in the car.

Well that is all I can think of to say right now.

loves

Broke down

2004-08-20T10:05:00.000-02:30

I can't wait for people to find this on their own because its driving me nuts. So I told Jen. Just have to wait and see what happens.

Going to camp today. I looks like its going to be a nice weekend. I hope nice weather stays and we have a supper great camp.

Thats it.

Camp

2004-08-19T08:57:00.000-02:30

I am so excited about camp this weekend. I am a brownie leader and we are taking our girls to camp this weekend. I hope we have good weather so that we can do everything that we have planed as well as go swimming. We have this problem where every time we go camping we have thunder and lightning and we have to get all the girls outof thier tents in teh middle og the night and bring them inside. Hopefully everything will go well and we wont have to do that this year.

I shouldn't be to bored here at work this morning since I have stuff to do for camp. We are havnig an olympic theme and I need to look up information on the three countries that we have chosen. We choose Switzerland, Mexico and England because of thier connection with guiding and I have also been to all three so I have pictures and post cards that I can bring to show them.

Well that is it for now.

Wondering

2004-08-18T09:19:00.000-02:30

So I don't think anyone I know has found this yet. I haven't tried to keep it hidden. I just want to wait to see if people will find it. I hope that if you are reading this and know me that you will leave a comment and let me know that you are. I don't know why I just haven't told people about it, I guess its the fun of waiting to see if people can find it on their own.

I have been so bored lately at work. I just don't want to do anymore research. I miss my job from last summer where I got to go boring mindless office work. I am such a geek because I love boring mindless ofice work like fileing and puting info into the computer. If I wanted to do reasearch and crap I would have went back to school this summer and finished early. But I really needed the money so I am stuck here in the office being bored and not haveing anything to do. I guess I could work on camp stuff or just serf the internet. I really should finishe my report so I can have that done. But you see the person I am doing it for is out of the office for the rest of the week and as long as I have it done for next Wednesday then all if fine.

I finally got my watch fixed Yesterday. I bought a swiss watch 5 years ago on a guiding trip to Switzerland and I haven't been able to wear it now for the past year because it strap has been broken. I got my boyfriend to go doen to the watch place and get it fixed yesterday only to find out when he got home that the battery was gone too, so now he needs to go back again and get a new battery today.

Well I guess I have avoided work long enough. Back to work I go. If you are reading pleas comment as I get bored and check back like 10 times a day.

Almost finished

2004-08-17T09:07:00.000-02:30

So I only have two more weeks of work left. I finish up here on the 31st of August. It hasn't been a bad summer job but it just wasn't as good and I didn't enjoy it as much as my job last summer. Oh well I made enough to buy my laptop and now I am poor again. oh well I guess being poor is the life of a student.

Finishing up work made me realize how close I am no to my internship. I am excited but yet a little scard. I don't know what to think. I am worried that I am not going to be a good teacher, I am worried that it's not going to be able to get through this and then what am I going to do. This is what I really want to do, this is my second choice and I have come this far and have gone into debt so much. I need this to work out. I need to be able to be good at something.

Then I worry about being finished and finding a job. I know that it a very slim chance for me to get a job in town. It is even very slime for me to get a job in Newfoundland. I know that I am going to have to move but I don't know if I can do it alone. I need to have people around me and I can't be alone. I am so worried that just typing this here has me all nervous.

Well there we go I have gotten out all of my worries and now I am going to get back to my work.

Back from the cabin

2004-08-15T21:27:00.000-02:30

So we are back from the cabin and everything went really well. I am so glad that we all got through the weekend without have any major issues or anything. I had a great time and I hope that everyone else did too. I was really worried that everything was going to go wrong and everyone was going to have a bad time and it was going to be all my fault. But everything was great and everyone seemed to have a really great time.

Well that is all for now. I am so hungry so I must go an eat. I wonder if anyone has found this yet?

Cabin

2004-08-13T09:20:00.000-02:30

So after work today we are leaving to go to the cabin. There is like 10 of us going and at first it was a good idea and I waas so excited but now there seems to be all thsee problems and stuff that has to be worked though. It seems like once one thing is solved something else comes up. I hate this so much. I feel like I am always running around doing damage control and I am just so tired because of it. I just want one fun weekend where there is no shit and no fights before Jen is gone. Is that to much to ask? I guess it is.

Well on the up side everyone is going and it is probably going to be one of the last times we are all going to be together like this. Oh no I can't start thinking about this now becuase I am going to cry and I have already cried to much at work this week. I don't want people to think I have problems.

Well I should get back to work even though I don't want to.

First Post

2004-08-12T14:44:00.000-02:30

Some of my friends now have a blog so I thought I would get one. I have just turned over a new leaf and I am moving into a more happier time. I have been unhappy and not myself for to long and I don't want to do it any more. I don't know if I will tell people about this blog just yet. I think I might wait for a while and then see what happens. I don't know I haven't decided yet. I use another online posting place right now but I am not sure if I want to use it any more since I am starting a new. I guess I will have to wait and see what comes of this.

A new ﻿beginning

Things are Better

Depressed

Things are going well.

Getting nervous.

Getting sick

So tired

Worried

Bored

The last girls night

Last night

Good-bye supper

Camp

Broke down

Camp

Wondering

Almost finished

Back from the cabin

Cabin

First Post

A new beginning